Sometimes you just get to one point where you just leave everything the way it is, not trying to make it better or worse and I think I just arrived at that state right now. I don't know what I want, I don't know where my life is leading me and I don't know where do I lead my life, I don't know what I want in my life. I'm not sure if I just have to go on and find another job or I'll just further my study. Nothing makes me happy again, everything is ruined and everything makes me tired. Everything makes me feel sick. I can't decide what's the best for me, I don't know what I want. I can't just rely on other people to think of what's the best for me. I'm in the shittiest state of myself nowadays I don't even wanna go out and meet people. I think everything in my life is going down, my self-confidence everything is falling apart. I just... I just don't know how to start over. It seems like everyone else in my life is getting better from day to day and I'm just here standing still. Even peoples from my past have moved on. I have no talents, I can't do anything right, everything about me is so lame. I just... I really just wanna let this all out because I don't have anyone specific to talk about all this shit. This is what I've been feeling these few days.
I am so tired of everything.
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
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